physical culture

I had made the decision to get as many jobs as I could and to work these jobs all that I could in between sleeping and eating and caring for my child. 

I wanted to build muscle and then more muscle, eat lean protein, lose all intrusions of language or imagination or whatever it was that distinguished a poet from anyone else.  With all of these jobs I could eventually begin to see my hamstrings.  I learned to do the reverse prone jacknife The New Rules of Lifting for Women: Lift Like a Man, Look Like a Goddess and to find a way to be paid for two and a half of my jobs at once.  Make Money Teaching Online: How to Land Your First Academic Job, Build Credibility, and Earn a Six-Figure Salary

Later I understood it was a question of "how much poetry can I remove from me?" but at the time it was strictly about numbers, each hour accounted for in a notebook devoted to the accounting of hours.  

In that my life consisted of working many jobs and taking care of a child and eating protein without any reading or writing my life was not that different from the lives of many other people except that sometimes traces of an earlier life would appear in the form of people wanting things from me. I learned to do the deadlifts with one leg behind me straight high in the air.  Anatomy For Women For Strength and Fitness Training I was always wanting balance challenges, like the 20 pound bicep curls with one leg curled, the foot tucked above my knee. 

There were a few nights I would feel sorry for myself and cry about capitalism and what it had done to us, but not too many nights. Some nights we would go to the strip mall bars of the old suburbs and in these bars the people who worked and took care of their children and did not read too many books sang songs by Shania Twain and Destiny's Child. Shania Twain - Greatest Hits

I could not even stand in the bruised world yelling "it's a bruised world."  Was this some kind of macronutrient imbalance? The Paleo Diet: Lose Weight and Get Healthy by Eating the Food You Were Designed to Eat Who knew?